Step by Step

Step by step I kept walking on the road ahead,

Not realizing that the beginning had already begun to fade.

Now I knew there was no way back for me,

I had come too far and there was much more to see.

This was life and it was to be lived,

All’s not fair and it’s a fact to be believed.

I thought jealousy was dark and love was bright,

Didn’t know that winning is everything and for it I would have to fight.

Being misunderstood is a part of my life,

Confusion and queries have cut me apart like a knife.

Kept helping others to understand themselves better,

When it was my turn I failed to express emotions that were bitter.

Smiling was an act I would put up when I was happy,

Now it’s become an emotional pain killing and hiding therapy.

Saint is the name I liked for myself but disguised myself as the devil,

Family and friends tried too hard and whatever little they knew of me was on their peril.

I lived by my instincts and relied on its guidance through all that I had done,

Self belief kept me going even if I was the jack of all trades but possibly master of none.

A consultant is what I wanted to be but I don’t know how far I would go,

Criticisms are now getting over me but… no I don’t want to quit the show.

A yes or a no makes a big difference and this time I can’t say “I don’t know”

Life is confusing with all the decisions to make and so am I ,

Have to fulfill the dreams unfulfilled and get over things that make me feel low,

Want that patting on the back from dad, and mom’s lap as my deathbed before I DIE.

Kolkata 'O Kolkata

There is so much to see so much to describe,
so much to feel so much that keeps you trying.
But this place stops me stops me to have a look at it
stops me to think and ask the question "Why???"
Why or how can any place be this different, so undressed
arguments seem to start without a begining to which there's no end
But still i feel connected, connected to some of the spirits here
i can still hear the call which goes unheard by the best of ears

The houses that represent the British touch to the thatched ones
people who remain anorexic, some who wanna look good to some who can't afford that food

HeArT BrEaK .... wad da HeLL :p

"There are times in your life when a person walks into your world and makes you feel you were incomplete before,

emotions flow which you are not supposed to show and yet other than the happiness of this soulmate nothing matters more.

Then one fine day you realise that even the best of dreams come to an end with the sunrise,

you still cant curse the beautiful imagination for not coming true

cause deep inside you do know that the persons well-being is what really matters to you.... the painful part is , even if it means to be without you.

If this was love then you are left with stains of it all over ur heart,

i am trying hard to rub off mine and wont give up even if it tears apart"

I ???

I

I am confused with life.

I am confused with the way things are.

I am confused with the way I am.

I am confused with the way the way is.

I am to be something I don’t know

I am to be someone I wanna know

I am to something my parents can proudly show

I am to be the one where hopes begin to flow

I like to be alone when things are bad

I like to sort my problems in my way when I am sad

I like to be with others when they need me the most

I like to be present with everyone being invisible as a ghost

I feel things that others can’t feel

I feel things that even I can’t see

I feel what I am not supposed to feel

I feel like shredding off the rules of steel

I want a life where skies are blue n people are true

I want a life where I do things that I love to do

I want a life where I am to stay the way I am

I want a life where I have a dear friend

I cannot be what I am not

I cannot see cruelty in the world

I cannot be a saint I know

I cannot just bear to see the hatred flow

I love to be loved by people whom I love

I love to be cared by the ones who ask for my goodwill

I love to be spared when there are expectations that I cant fulfill

I love to be dared by the ones who hate me the most

I can accept changes in life

I can accept challenges thrown to me to survive

I can accept the fact that people are not what they seem to be

I can accept the fact that I do possess an abnormality